cInTa AnTaRa KiTa

The first time I ever saw her when I was passing by her with a gentle voice saying 'tumpang lalu', after that, I saw her smiling at me for the first time.....I cant even remember when was that but I know it was before the 2-week holiday in the middle of March....at the holiday.... she asked someone to chat with her on Yahoo! messenger....so I volunteered....after that....I felt love towards her...but whenevr I see her....Im just to shy to talk to her....when weeks passed...I learned she was in a relationship with Syed Munastasyah....I dont mind actually because fate doesnt give me the opportunity to be with her but there is still fragments of love towards her...so instead being with her, I'll just be her trusted friend....then 1 day...Syed came up to me to talk about something....I thought it was about something but then my stomach jumped when I heard it was about Zulfa...I told him everything after what I knew that he was with her.....just being a friend....then he gave me a warning....since then, I hated him....why does he so jealous of me with her???

A few months passed and then came what I would not expected....At the early 2-week holiday in May.....I text her saying hi and how are you......then she replied who are you??....at that moment, it ruined the whole 2-weeks of holiday filled with sadness and misery....so I deleted all her message in my phone but I didn't throw away the letters I and her used to write....I kept them as the remaining memory to remember of her....sometimes I hear the song and see the pictures she send me...it was titled 'Grenade - Bruno Mars'......even until now I still had them....when the school opened...I said to myself I dont even want to see her face.....her sweet smile....sweet generous smile....a week passed....I thought to myself...."is the one who texted me is actually her or it was Syed???"....I kept thinking of it nearly everyday....although nowadays she still smiled at me I still remembered the tragedy back at the early 2-week holiday in May...when I opened her blog today...I noticed she post this-->>>

Perkenalan aku dan dia bermula pada tarikh 1 april 2011. Aku betul2 tak sangka dapat knal gan dia ==' . Sbb sbelum ni pun aku ta pnah dengar nama dia. Nama yg sgat asing bagi aku ! Dan pada mulanya pun aku tak rasa kteorng akn lebih dari KAWAN. dan pada tarikh keramat 4 April 2011 , pukul 1130 malam betempat di asrama sekolah .. dia ttbe je tnye aku da brpnyeke belum ,dgan rasa amat sengal aku pun mnjwab .. belum (:

dan bermula lahh kisah hidup kteorng brsama saat 4 april berlalu .. masa 1st time tgk dia aku ingat dia PLAYBOY taw tak.. tapi wlauapepun aku mncuba sdaya upaya utk setia. Tak taw nak cite mcm mane , bole dkatakan stiap hari kteorng gado mse mila2 kapel =='. aku un tak tawu laa knpe gan dia tuu. Pada satu hari tu baru dia bgtaw sbbnya , di atak suke faa rapat gan ZABIER :'(. Dan aku harus merenggakan hbungan aku dgan hamba allah itu :)

that I noticed she cared for me but at the end of it....something doesnt seemed right...I dont know what is but the words "Dan aku harus merenggakan hbungan aku dgan hamba allah itu :)" felt like Im the one she's leaving...

to tell you the truth...I had been loving and dating many girls but she is different although she is not as pretty as the girl in SMD....shes the girl thats very special to me... :'(